Current mood:	crushed
Current music:	Sadness and Sorrow

I should be happy right?
They are back together, him and his "ex"...

Or maybe I shouldnt call her, his ex...

His now back with his girlfriend, the person that he love more. The reason why he cant give his love to me. I should be happy since he is happy right now. That's what I wanted to happen, that is what I keep on telling him when we are together. To go back to her, if that what keeps him happy, if that what he longs, what he wishes. Now they are back together, why couldnt I be happy for them. I should be...

And this emotions that is welling up inside me, are not the emotions that I should be feel. I shouldnt feel pain, jealousy and the inane urge to ask him 'WHY'. After all that's what I wanted right? For him to be happy.


I guess this normal... I'll be fine... I'll be okay...

Damn at least I could make my self believe those words...


I should be fine...